Vampires Need Not Read
Temperment: Happy
Days Left Til Mercer Return:
Record: "Real Me" by Ayumi Hamasaki

Whooo! Guess what guys! I'm special...no, not in the head! My blood. As some of you know, my blood has a high iron content and also has certain antibodies that are good. I got a call from the American Red Cross today. They told me that I also had blood categorized as "baby blood." Supposedly my blood is also pure enough to be used for new born babies. They also let me know that two kids needed my blood. One kid has just been diagnoised with leukemia.

When she told me that I almost dropped the phone. I thought of my grandpa. He didn't have leukimia he had prostate cancer. I also thought of Peter, Lum, and Cat. I didn't know Micheal, but I knew that he meant something to them. I also though of other people like Mrs. Cathy. She died last year after fighting cancer for years. She had a kid younger than Ben. I almost started to cry right there.

There's also a premature baby that was born that needs blood. I think it needed some kind of surgery and it needs my blood. That blew my mind. Some tiny baby in a platic crib with tubes and stuff and a worried mom and dad. I'm glad I was leaning against the counter in the kitchen.

These kids are sitting in Macon. Right now. They wanted me to come down and give blood that second but I couldn't because I have no one to drive me to Savannah, which is where the closest donation center is, and I can't drive myself because lol I sleep for about 20-30 hours after giving blood. Poor Quita has seen it. So I'm going tomorrow to Savannah to give blood which should make it to Macon Saturday afternoon or Sunday morning.

I'm kinda excited, but also worried. I have to drive to Columbus on Wednesday. ^_^ Yupe you heard me! My mom decided that she wasn't going to fight me on it again and she said I can go to Columbus, and then go to Atlanta with him and his folks. I would love to see the group but there's a chance we might not get to. I'm suppose to head back home Sunday morning.

Hopefully eveything goes well. I'm kinda nervous about Jun's surgery. He says it's no big deal and he'll be out the same day. I have my doubts. I also am kinda worried about what I'm going to do while he's in surgery. lol I'm always so uncomfortable around people's parents most of the time. I don't really know how I'm suppose to act at all. Geeze that should be interesting.

Ona different note, Kato is mad at me. He's upset because he beliieves he has no good quialities and that he's life is meaningless. The guy is going through a mid-life crisis at 19 because of his summer job. He hasn't even had the job a weak and he's freakin' out that work is going to consume his whole life from now on. I tried to be positive and tell him it'll be all right but he's pretty much condemmended himself to a life of slave labor for some nameless company....this from the guy with a 1.5 GPA....::sigh:: whatever...I told him I really didn't feel sorry for him because that's the way it is. His dad got him the job. He gets like $11 and hour and basically he's on AIM from 8 am to 6 pm...oh the agony. When Peter wanted money to go to Japan he busted his butt at K-Mart...with no A/C (the horror). I worked too while I was in school and Quita right there next to me, working 2 and 3 jobs at once. Geimer has got to be like the biggst work-a-hollic ever! Jon and Rachel too they work and have a place to live and pay bills...that's about as Real World as it gets. I really don't feel sorry for him. I wish he'd quit drowning himself. Whatever I'm only willing to try for so long before that defeatest attitude makes me say "fuck you and peace out"

So yeah everyone take care okay! Loves you!
Kim

War Waging Words AKA Some Self Analysis
Temperment: Annoyed
Days Left Til Mercer Return:83
Record: "Bodies" by Drowning Pools

So once upon a time I told Sean that I thought that people didn't really change. This was mostly an after image of the Daniel thing. I mean if you're a private person its really not likely that you'll one day be like Brittney Spears shaking your ass for all of America you know. I'm not saying people don't grow or mature but people have habbits you know. Anyway ever since then he has barely talked to me and calls me narrow minded and what have you.

According to him, I'm afraid to have fun and to meet new people. Now...really I don't like strangers.I will admit to that. It's not like I'm shy though. Really I'm pretty much a solitary creature. It's not that I don't talk to people, it's just really I don't care what other people think. Anyway I think the main problem he has with me is that I look at the things he does slantedly.

For public notice-in case anyone cares--which I know they don't but just to have the info readily avaiable for anyone reading this--getting waisted, drunk outta your mind, going to the club-- is not my idea of a good time. No I haven't done it but I also have no desire to do it.

In college, school comes first--epescially when it's costing 30 grand a year. Next is work, because I would like to have money. And as for fun...I live with one of my best friends....need I say more?

As for meeting new people, Intermurals has forced me to meet more people than I care to remember. Some good some bad, whatever, my job in SSS did the same thing. As for of my free will, I have one word: Animercer....oh yeah I went there ^_^

Animercer is where I met Kato ( and for Kato's ego...cause I know he'll get mad if he doesn't see it--Kato is a Space Cowboy...or today he's a Samurai...a sleeping one at that), Shroomie (actually I met him in clss), Jake (for the 3rd time--he has a terrible memory), and Alex (someone I could soooo do without). Knew them like for 3 days before we stole a golf cart and nearly got hauled in by merpo--not the plan but shit happens and its kinda how Kato and I became so tight. So we hung out for the rest of the year. Now most of them are on my AIM thingie and we talk all the time. Especially Kato....Kato is super nocturnal.

Plus if I was so scared of meeting people why did I do Opportuity Scholars....or go with Krystal to watch Spirited Away with her honors class...hmm you know this blog entry was mostly for me trying to figure out things...trying to answer the questions we all ask ourselves now and again:who am I, and what have I become? So I'm not normal...I think most of us on this blog circuit aren't....we don't go clubin we DDR or have bands ^_^ we don't drink beer we drink Ramune...and watch really bad b movies (lol unneeded qualifier there) I don't know ::shrug:: I don't understand how people make these judgement calls...maybe they're scared to just be themselves as opposed to what they think they should do and ought to be.

I don't like people it's well known...that doesn't mean I don't have fun...I think he and I just have different versions of fun...most people stay within their groups unless they're interested in another group...I dunno

Anyway obviously people change...or maybe they just show you different sides of themseleves at different times I dunno. Lol I'm a little worried about posting this last part haha Peter and Lum are usually great at taking my theories and taking them apart (not in a bad way...just a way that gives us lots to blog about hehe)Anyway...who knows who cares...and when it's all said and done WHO REALLY GIVES A FUCK WHAT I THINK ANYWAY...or what anyone else thinks for that matter....

Peace and love for my 706 Crew, My Jonnell Crews, The Animercer boys, and hugs and kisses to my Jun bug.

La Mujer de la Mancha
Temperment:{Blink}
Days Left Til Mercer Return:87
Record: "Feel Good Inc" by thr Gorillaz

So...week w of being at home...::blink blink:: Someone please save me...please! My mom keeps telling me to get a job....and when I start to leave to go get one...she asks who's going to take care of Ben...now here's the douche of it....she wants me to basically work from 5-9 (aka when she's home after work but technically not night) WHO THE FUCK HIRES SOMEONE WHO CAN ONLY WORK 5-9? The only job even remotely hinting at that is Sno Biz and it works on 4 hour shifts I think like 12-4 and then 4-8...so yeah what the hell? Besides they only hire like 6 people at Sno Biz because they only have 2 huts. On top of that...my dad is going to be here for 2 weeks and no one wants me to work those 2 weeks and my mom wants to go to Puerto Rico for another 2 weeks....Um....someone help me locate the logic PLEASE!

Moving on

The Aunts left...I swear...they think I'm high and gay X_X which wouldn't be a problem if I was either of those things...but I'm not. but they're gone. My cousin Nibo and I have been talking more often. Nibo is another misfit inside the family. Really I'm the only one that likes him. He watches a lot of anime and listens to a lot of rock...thus too japanese/american for the latins lol sounds waaay too familiar.

I'm pretty bored at home. I wake up clean, go run errands for my mom--on bike because she won't give me gas cash. Like Quita my boxes got rummaged in....::Twitch:: more on that later.

I got xoblite black box on my computer...it has some glitches but oh well. My mom wants it on her laptop. She knows very well that it took me HOURS to get my own coding and preferences up and she wants me to do hers...oh lord.

Anyway I'm going to go shut up....I gotta go get Ben. I'll talk to you guys later.
Kim


I MISS MACON, THE CREW (QUITA JON RACHEL GAMES JUNIOR) and all parts of extended (because not locared in the 706) Crew (PETER)T_T KATO, WILL, BILLY, JAKE, (not mike ::cough cough:: AND ANYONE ELSE WHO I FORGOT AS I RUN OUT OF THIS DOOR TO GET MY BROTHER~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Pray to Saint Jude
Temperment:Sad-ish
Record: "Walking in the Dark, Alone" by Armor for Sleep

::sigh:: I've been home less than a week and I'm ready to go home. Let me start with...Saturday, my last day at Mercer. First of...lol I was at Kato's (Kurt's--long story) til like 5 am. I never realized I didn't have friends (I mean like here at Mercer) til like the day I met him. I just kinda was always with Quita and Billy and that was all I needed. I'm a pretty solitary person anyway. Meeting him was reminisant to meeting Peter I think. Once I got to know Peter I wanted desperately to be his friend haha...so yeah. Kato and I became friends. TAlked from like midnight til 5 about damn near everything.

So slept for like 3 hours. woke up showered took my "final" (cleaning some lady's yard) came back finished packing and getting my shit and to my horror....not everything will fit @_@. Call my mom and she leaves like an hour later but that's a different story.

All my stuff is packed and I still have to drive home that day and I learned my lesson last time. So I call Kato ^_^ and ask if I can sleep in his bed since he's not leaving til Wednesday. He laughs at me and says ok. I go in there and make myself at home. He sat there studying for his history test. It was sooo quiet that I made him read his notes out loud so I could sleep and so he could study. I kept asking him questions but eventually I fell asleep. I woke up when my mom called to tell me she was there about 2 hours after falling asleep. Kato was gone to take his test. Left him a peace out post it and left.

Drove home and the first thing they have me do is yard work X_X The next day I drive to Savannah (an hour away) and walk all day. Then do it again monday--and I've been all over Hinesville driving my aunts around for the last 3 days........someone save me. And that's just physical exhersion not even touching the emotional.

Good news --Quita has a 3.5 and Kato passed his pre cal test and his history test...which sadly...gives him like a 1.8...I dunno ^_^;; I don't know what my GPA is yet...but yeah I'm out...

Animercer Golf Cart Double Dash
Temperment:Happy
Record:

So...what does a normal person do the night before finals? Study. What does Kim do the night before finals? Party-Animercer style ^_^ The boys of Animercer were hosting a Soul Caliber Tournament at 10 pm yesterday night. I spent most of the afternoon studying with Quita so I could guilt free enjoy my evening.

So I get into Plunkett at 9:50 and knock on Jacob's door (he's the host of the tournament) and he's not there. So I knock on Kurt's door (Kurt is Jacob's neighbor, Animercer president, and all around nice guy--I adore him, he and I are the only PS2 users and SoCal rivals). So Kurt shares a bathroom with Jacob so we go through and see that his system is still in his room. So basically he's not in the basement setting up. So we go to Rich's room (Rich is watching the Phantom of the Opera....yeah that tells you a good bit) and Jacob isn't there. So we go to the Midnight Breakfast...nope not there and then we go to the Media Center which is where Will works. We find Will and ask him if he knows where Jacob is--not a clue great...we then proceed to "help" Will at work by going to pick up a laptop and projector from the otherside of the campus.

Now here's were it gets interesting. I'm sitting in the front of the golf cart, Will is driving and Kurt is standing up on the back pretending like its Mario Double Dash for Gamecube. Things go okay for a while...until Kurt falls off as we hop over a curb. Homeboy falls off, his pants get caught and he is dragged for a ways...with Merpo watching. Yupe... he's okay a few scratches on his back and he riped his pants open...funny funny funny.

And then we finally found Jacob...um...another long story. So I stayed out til like 2 am. So went to bed at 3 or 4 woke up around 8. Danced, literally, through my final..which I know I missed some of the Identification because I didn't read 2 of the last poems because we never discussed them. So eh that's like a B test..I think I got a B in that class...maybe a C I hope a B.

I might host a DDR thing Friday night I don't know if they Animercer boys are free....but that's about it for me. Yupe... the end.

Uninvited Guest Collazo Edition
Temperment:Relieved
Record: "Knief of Romance" by Phi

Thank goodness!! Back in Macon where it's safe. My mother's sisters came to visit (uninvited as the title states) for Ben's communion. Although I do not claim to be a very good Catholic {throws on blue baseball hat with a white B on it and holds up little penant that says "Go Ben!"} I am, in fact, a supporter of all my brother's endevors.

He did pretty darn good! He was one of the shorter kids but one of the older group but he was one of the only ones that didn't grimmace when comsuming the Christ Chex or the wine. When he gets older I might show him the Cook Comedy special with the Catholic jokes. He hates mass...and Sunday school...is that for most kids? I know I hated it, but well I dunno.

Now on to the dimmer side of the weekend. The Aunts were brutial, and constantly comparing me to the golden girl of our familiy, Rosalie. Let me tell you about Rosalie. Rosalie is 2 years my senior, has perfect teeth, perfect figure, a model in fact, and everyone loves her. She's just sooooo darn friendly ::blank face, monotone voice:: Kinda flighty actually but whatever. She goes the the beauty salon every weekend and gets her hair done and nails and she wears just enough make-up and dresses nice. Anyway...she lives with her brother, working with her brother, at a job her brother got her. Yeah....soooo uh huh.

Now in comparision! I am the not so trim (because we have heftier ones in my family among the cousins), stained teeth (in my defense those were the antibiotics that I took from about being born to age 9), quiet, moody one. I live in a dormitory with Quita, and work 2 jobs ^_^ one of which I got all by myself and the other one Quita poked her boss and said the Rican there is employable and you need folk--hire her. I have poofy hair and bite by nails and no makeup.I dunno...I can always say I'm smarter. Its kinda hurtful when your family takes everything you've always disliked about yourself and point it out to you and say--yeah yeah its even worse than you think there, kiddo.

Moving on.

My mom stepped in at one point, which didn't do much but I was happy that she tried. I'm not exactly special in my families eyes. Of course....now that I reeeeaaallly think about it...no one on this blog ring is really...all that endorsed by their families.

Um....FIGHT TYRANNY TO THE DEATH!!!!!!!!!!